I love God, and do all I can to believe in His every word, but I wish I had your Faith. I firmly believe in the Eucharist, and it IS an act of will to do so–it is not our choice whether or not we FEEL extremely awed–but I definitely wish I had your Faith. I wish I would look at the Eucharist and be brought to tears.
However, I do not think in ANY way that non-Catholics should be admitted to the Eucharist. If that were the case, any bum of the street could come into a Catholic Church and deface the Eucharist. Granted, any “Catholic” who is not really a Catholic could do so, but I think the safer the better.