Just to clarify:

I’m not digging a trench just for the sake of argument. I was raised to be vocal and contentious and question authority until I was satisfied with the answer. Right now, I’m not satisfied with the answers I’ve gotten from the priests and bishop I’ve asked. I wish I knew what it was about me and my gender that made us unable to participate in the sacrament and if I knew, maybe I’d accept it. But I haven’t found any answer yet that I’ll assent to.