November 14, 2003 at 8:29 pm #614
When I think of a Bible passage or story that best describes my faith, it is that of the agony in the garden, when Jesus asks the apostles to pray for him for an hour and they fall asleep. My life has kind of been like this in the sense that I keep falling asleep on Christ, and he has to keep waking me up. Now, by “falling asleep,” I mean in the spiritual sense, where I kind of “doze off” or become distracted for awhile. I want to be right there with Jesus, very much, yet it seems my thoughts wander off and and start to put him to the side for a time while other things seem more important. It has never really been a deep sleep, but just kind of a daydream or catnap. Therefore, I feel I have had many “awakenings” in Christ instead of just one or a few. In the mean time, I will keep working on staying awake and ready for Jesus. ” title=”Very Happy” />November 18, 2003 at 6:50 am #2218
I agree with you! I get distracted pretty easily cause so much ‘important stuff’ is going on, that when I do sit down my focus isn’t always in the right place. It usually takes awhile of simply trying to get my focus/clear my mind to allow God to bring to it whatever [i:103wiqql]He[/i:103wiqql] wants.
At first I thought you were going to equate your prayer to ‘agony’, which isn’t too far off the mark sometimes! Sometimes you just don’t get the ‘frosting on the cake,’ (emotional feelings/the high) from prayer- prayer is ‘dry’ in a way, but in perseverence that is even a greater demonstration of faith. Just as rainy days make the sunny days seem so great, ‘dry’ prayer pays off and grace kicks in when you honestly need it and then you just fall on your knees in awe and you just say to yourself ‘how in the world did I ever doubt before?’.
I have always found it interesting how easily usually we as Christians can talk about suffering and pain and death and ‘offering it up’ as if it is no big deal (of course we all know it isn’t the easiest). We have so much truth and hope through Christ that I take it for granted sometimes, that others understand exactly what that’s like. God shows up a million different ways in a day and when it all adds up it makes perfect perfect sense.
On a side note:
My priest from my hometown used to advise us that the best time to “stop praying was when you didn’t want stop.” ” title=”Very Happy” />November 18, 2003 at 12:27 pm #2219
Three cheers for you! You’ve said it! ” title=”Very Happy” />
It’s like I am taking it for granted that God will be there when I “wake up.” I know he will be, but that is not the kind of relationship I want to have with Christ.December 19, 2003 at 7:00 pm #2273
I guess I never formally introduced myself in this forum.
well, here it goes…
My name is Stephanie and I am a cradle Caltholic, born and raised in Wisconsin, but I am now making Minnesota my home.
Currently, I am a sophomore in college, majoring in family social science (which is similar to social work). I am also engaged to Jon, ” title=”Very Happy” /> who is the head staffperson on this forum. We both are excited for our upcoming wedding in August.
It is nice to have a place on the web to talk to other people about Catholic stuff and even just everyday “blah blah blah” kind of stuff. I am glad to be a part of this forum.
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