February 17, 2005 at 6:53 am #965
(I moderate a Welcome forum elsewhere and I always wondered why the subject headings were just things like “Hi”. Now, I know. Nice to know)
So. I’m Carolyn; I’m a seventeen-year-old catechumen from Canada. I was raised agnostic and my parents are still agnostic. My brothers are both older than I am. Chris is currently spending a year abroad in Scotland (and trying to find an RCIA program there) and Pat lives with his fiance in the city about fifty kilometres from our farm (he’s also christian, but Pat’s always marched to the beat of a different drummer. It’s one of the reasons I love him). Both of my brothers were baptised into the United Church of Canada, but my parents were never religious and with me, my mom decided that she couldn’t make the baptismal promises in good faith because she just didn’t believe.
I first felt the calling to become christian when I was probably fourteen. I spent three years church-shopping, but the moment I walked into the parish I’m at now I had a sense of coming home that’s never really gone away. I feel odd, sometimes; I meet so many people struggling in their faith, or worrying over what they believe, but I’ve never really felt doubt that Christ lives and has a real presence in His Church, or that this was a way I could live. My cynical voice tells me that it’s youthful idealism and will be beaten out of me shortly by the entity commonly known as Real Life. My Very Quiet voice says that I’m a little beyond ordinary (perhaps evidenced by the fact that I’m a seventeen year old catechumenate joining a Catholic forum and I just used the word ‘evidenced’ without thinking. Or something) and that maybe, just maybe, I’ve hit on truth and not just youthful naivete, and the reason it feels right is because it is.
My parents aren’t entirely happy about it, as they’re not big subscribers to organised religion. I’m not doing this out of teenage rebellion, though; it’s a source of distress to me when I’m honest with myself. I was going to be baptised last June through the RCIT program, but my mom asked me to wait until Easter. I’ll turn eighteen on Good Friday, so the church doesn’t need her permission- so we’ve both reached an impasse because she can’t possibly even conceive of God, I can’t possibly [i:39z3y1lc]not[/i:39z3y1lc], and I’ll be grown up and there’s nothing she could do to stop me except pull on the guilt chain, and she wants me to make my own decisions.
In short: here to learn.February 18, 2005 at 6:56 pm #3713
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Hi, welcome! I’d say more, but I am on my way out the door to lead kids in a retreat this weekend. I will post more when I get back! ” title=”Smile” />March 27, 2005 at 7:25 am #3962
Carolyn, it’s wonderful that you feel that. Don’t ignore it and follow it with prayer. Once again welcome.
~VictorMarch 27, 2005 at 9:36 pm #3982
And happy birthday. ” title=”Very Happy” /> You are old enought to vote (at least in the USA), I feel you are old enought to decide your faith or lack of it. Still, remember to honor your mother and father. That does not mean you have to put them above God though. You have the oppertunity to show the light and love of Christ to your parents. Let the “fruit” of your faith speak for itself.
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